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I find you so attractive It drains my sanity You have a beautiful figure I can't make you reality I'll have you make this promise Smash in your teeth I want to kill this faster There is no saving me Nothing can kill this guilt trip Up in the stratosphere Demons lie killing me And masturbating me I cannot wait for my judgement The patience is killing me Just send me to Hell already I need to rip my jaw out I need to cut my throat I need to eat your psyche I need to drown my lungs I need to... I need to stab myself I need to punch your throat Fun timing this killing image I need to punch my throat Punch me and slit my throat Cowering in all my hate It won't stop... It won't stop... It won't stop...

Demon lying in my bed I can't get any sleep Demon hovering over me Trying to seduce me I can't give what it wants It's all in my head Gun shaking in my arms I can't scare it away Orange light fills the room Hallucinatory apparitional sex fiend Rifle shaking in my arms Guns can't ward off the mental wounds She's dances before my eyes Teasing me through this schizo trip I aim the gun at her Eyes shut, pull trigger I scream, my love I vomit my love And as I stare at the wall Now rife with bullet holes She continues dancing away She won't go away I lie down facing the ceiling And she touches my face I feel her tongue on me I seethe with rage It tells me that it wants me Demon tells me that she loves me I can't scare it away I won't believe what she says Shaking uncontrollably Will this ever end? The more she smothers over my body The more tempted I am This rifle in my arms Still some bullets left Oh God if you don't take her away I'll aim it towards my head This love, our love This fate, my hate My hurt, our church So worship away This love I feel Hatred, inside Don't scream, I plead This love is for me Battle my mind Desolation Screaming inside Toxic waste Vomit unearthed Breaking my mind She calls for me I can't escape Trapped in this agony Life never ends for me Can I move on this way? Could tomorrow be a new day? Putting this waste on me How could this be for me? Why won't it go away? Don't ask for me to stay Love is life Life is pain Pain is death Death is life Life is love Love is pain Pain is sex SEX IS MISERY Love is pain Pain is life Life is sex SEX IS MISERY Pain is death Death is love Love is sex SEX IS MISERY God gave brains To try and seduce us Into thinking that That witch girls Are sexually drawn to men Who commit suicide But it lies SEX IS MISERY God gave brains To try and seduce men Into thinking That witch girls Will shove their fingers Down our throats To display their love to us SEX IS MISERY

NOTHING CAN HURT ME MORE THAN YOUR SMILE NOTHING CAN BURN ME MORE THAN YOUR TEARS I WANT TO SEE IT ALL CUT ME DEEPER A GODLY INNOCENCE IT'S DOWNRIGHT TORTURE I'M GOING TO CRUSH MY SKULL WITH A TEN TON HAMMER I'M GOING TO CRUSH MY FOOT WITH A RUSTY ICE PICK I'M GOING TO SHOVE MYSELF INTO AN IRON MAIDEN I'M GOING TO MELT THE FLESH OFF OF MY FACE SO I CAN'T FEEL YOU NOTHING CAN KILL ME MORE IN MY NERVE CENTERS THAN A LOOK FROM YOUR PUPILS INTO MY BLEEDING HEART WHILE YOU LOOK AT ME SO DEARLY WHEN YOU SMILE WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME I AM SUCH AN UGLY BEAST YOU'RE INGENUINE YOU'RE NOT REAL YOU'RE AN INSULT TO ALL CREATION SO MUCH INNOCENCE SO MUCH PURITY SO MUCH I CAN'T STAND IT AT ALL YOU'RE NOT BEAUTIFUL YOU'RE NOT CLEANLINESS THEREFORE GOD SHOULD KILL US ALL I'M UNGRATEFUL I'M UNFAITHFUL OH I JUST WANT TO END IT ALL NOTHING CAN KILL ME MORE THAN BEING SUBJECT TO YOUR GRACE I DESERVE NOTHING MORE THAN YOUR SPIT UPON MY FACE I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF ONE OF THESE DAYS AND WHEN I DO I PRAY AND HOPE YOU NEVER LEARN NY NAME

I am deep in love with the moon I've fallen deep in love... I see her smiling down at me I've seen the bright side of the dark And when I see her looking down at me That's when I hear her sing her song I've fallen deep in love with the moon The sun's too angry, she blinds my eyes But with the moon I can stare at her face For hours on end and she smiles and stares back As she knows I long for her And she loves me too And I love the way she swoons When she knows I'm masturbating To the beauty of her eyes To the beauty of her smile As I lie upon the grass And we stare into each other Knowing she knows just what I'm feeling And we love each other so... Much Oh we belong to each other Oh we need each other Oh we're the light of our lives She's the only one I want There is no one else I long for These women of flesh and bone Could never compare to her deity-like features From the black of the sky To the grass and white stars I am one with it all And I'll be one with her too She phases my eyes She phases my thoughts She phases my love She phases my lust When I gaze in her eyes And I gaze in her thoughts And I gaze in her love And I gaze in her lust And I reach out my hand And I long for a touch And I know if she could She would reach out too But the most she can do Is keep smiling to me And mouth out the words to me "I love you" We know we long for each other We know we need each other We both know that one day We will finally be with each other But I am but a lowly man But I know that she waits for me And when I die and become God I vow that I'll return to her Trillions of miles through all of space Just for her, and only for her And I will hold her in my arms And we will finally cherish each other And we'll remain frozen in time In an everlasting and loving embrace And she will never leave my arms And we'll remain stagnant in that space Never to die, only to love For all of the rest of eternity

I feel myself falling Into that pit again That part of me rising While the rest of me is dying Locked into focus My body's alive I'll have my way again My soul dying Nothing else matters anymore DON'T LET ME GO BACK AGAIN Maybe it'll be different this time Maybe I'll see Why I keep doing this Why I keep ruining me But that never happens It always ends up the same And I plummet back to the ground So have mercy on me I'M GOING TO GO BACK AGAIN And how they find me I throw my mercy to the ground And will it save me? I spill salvation on the ground And what it does to me No ounce of joy is to be found And should it kill me? My heart beats a bleeding heart I shouldn't be doing this (unending beauty) Nobody should be treating themselves this way The mind is worthless (the heart beating) We throw ourselves into the grave With the heart beating but the mind and soul destroyed (the soul dies) Our bodies as empty husks as the soul is shriveled like a fetus I've failed God (I've failed God) It keeps happening Over and over again How am I supposed to Ensure I never will again? My mind numb My soul dead Can't focus, thoughts clouded Yeah, here it comes again Locked into place Pleasure I can't ignore I've gone too far to turn back now I'll see you all in Hell I feel myself drowning I feel myself dying Can't hear myself drowning My thoughts are dead Can't feel myself drowning Can't feel myself dying Can't feel myself dissolving My love is dead I feel my heart drowning I feel my soul dying Shriveled up and withered I am dead Can't feel myself burning Can't hear myself crying Thoughts shriveled and withered My soul is dead Can't feel myself living As my body's rising Fully destroying I feel myself... Dead

I hold in my arms a newborn baby The most beautiful thing I've ever seen I want to take the gun and shove it in my mouth I want to take my head and slam it into a spike I want to take a sharp head of a guitar And shove it right through my f*king skull and eyes I want to be impaled through my mouth I can't bear to live another second of this life Oh how we laughed and smiled through the days Oh how we've learned to live, laugh, love, and play And how our mother's smiled down upon our graves As we jumped and rolled around the autumn hay Oh suck on my gunshot jaw Oh suck on my blown-out brain Oh suck on my carved out eyes Just like you sucked on my in-grown hate You never saw me as a father You never saw us as your family You only saw us as pieces of meat To be used only at your own disposal You sick, vile, evil whore Born with no remorse What was already my regret Turned into my death But I'll be damned if I didn't enjoy it I'll be damned if I never loved you All the nights that we spent together Blurring the lines between lust and love But every single I night I cry Lying next to her mother To her, we are mother and father To the rest, we're brother and sister I cannot live like this I will not live like this My threshold has reached its end God have mercy on all of us I hold in my arms what once was my baby Pumped full of lead I hold her bleeding body in my arms The most beautiful thing I've ever seen I hold her body shaking and crying Gun still in hand I shove the gun into my mouth And pull the trigger My final moment of relief

I lie scattered in ruins I lie left for dead on the highway I look down and see half of my body cut off And my guts have been engrained into the concrete I have only my arms To use to help crawl myself towards safety The rest of my body is scattered about To be left behind in a bloody mess But this physical agony doesn't compare To the image in my head of your smiling face As I crawl onto the grass and vomit from the pain I bury myself in hate because You're the one who did this to me I claw my nails through the grass Leaving a trail of blood behind from my fallen out entrails This is the physical embodiment of how you ruined me How you had me destroyed You punish me with hate My arms are plagued with scrapes My eyes burn black in pain My heart seethes red with rage This hatred that I feel Will never go away Never as long as I still See the smile on your face Everything you've ever done Everything that you stand for Everyone who's ever thought That you're a blessing on their lives My pain is unimaginable It makes my head explode To the point where I'll step outside and Remove the pin from this grenade I have nothing else to lose I have nothing else to live for The burden of this weight Solely caused by your existence I refuse to live in a world Where we both bleed the same red Where we both breathe the same air Where we both tread the same dirt My teeth are grinding My head is bleeding My wrists are cut My throat is hoarse My sweat is dripping The sun is seething It burns down on me Burning my skin into ash Unfathomable torture The smell of rain I lift my head up and I Bleed the sky of all my shame Schizophrenic pre-death visions And you're to blame I am now no longer a man Now my flesh has turned into hate Destroyed... I am destroyed My blood pumps harder and harder To the point where it breaks through my skin And my blood pours out of me Draining through my fingertips And my brain so seethed with hate Finally breaks the tumor inside Blood pours through my throat and eyes Destroyed... I am destroyed Now I'm left with my bleeding face And the sky absorbs my screams All of this caused by my hate Because of your life, I am destroyed Because of your breath, I am destroyed Because of your laugh, I am destroyed Because of your smile, I am destroyed Because of your tears, I am destroyed Take a long and healthy look at me This war I've waged is cause of me Purge myself of all my hate I will make you take the blame For my suffering so great The only thing that keeps me alive The chance to see you one last time... So I can take you down with me I am degraded So much less of what I am I used to be a saint I had that ripped from me I am decadent I've stooped so low to turn back now And I am hopeless The only thing left is death When you're destroyed